and HE made all things beautiful

so my bestfriend's pregnant :)

it is not just any other pregnancy (oh my God!, it's not!) because she's been trying so hard and stressing out so much about becoming pregnant. I would totally understand where she's coming from: I mean try going to a gathering of friends who's been married as long as you are and they've popped out 1, perhaps 2 kids? I somehow believed that this is plainly the way of life. You get some, you lose some. Sometimes, you just don't. You can stare into the heavens, cry your eyes out and hope that God would give you a sign, some kind of answer: but nope. No answers.

Don't get me wrong, i am not indifferent. In fact, I'm delighted! More than that, I'm relieved. I'm relieved that she doesn't need to attend another function and wonder how come everyone's carrying a bundle. I'm relieved that she doesn't have to ask 'Why not me?', I'm relieved that she doesn't need to spend another cent on a gynae who tells her to try again and again. I'm relieved that she doesn't need to go for another surgery, I'm relieved that i for one, would stop asking God 'why do bad things happen to good people' and 'why do good thing happen to bad people?'

Maybe as much as it is a blessing to her, it also gave me an answer to my question: Could God be really that mean? Would God come up with a sick joke & say 'hey, you know, you just don't look like a mom material to me! ' Maybe? Maybe not? Perhaps if God made her wait and then gave her all the good things in abundance, maybe He'd be good to me too. Perhaps, he's giving ALL the good things to those who waits.

This is perhaps an evidence of hope.

Would we get everything we'd hope for if we hope hard enough? Is this a test of hope and belief. What do you hope about? Who do you hope to? How do you hope? When do you start? Or do we get what we hope for when we start learning to leave things the way it is and learn to let go?

Would this be, maybe a question of fate?

How do you define fairness or unfairness? If you were pregnant and say, your bestfriend isn't, would it still be fair? Does God play favourite? Or is it something one SHOULD or SHOULDN'T do? Who were to say if one deserves to and the other doesn't? Does God decide what should or shouldn't happen with no arguments? What if we plead? What if we got the whole world to pray for us? Would God still tell you that it's fated?

Another friend's pregnant, another friend's starting a new family, another friend's getting married: And there i am still trying to figure out what i'm doing with my life. Hence, you'll keep seeing my post, asking questions after questions. This isn't just MY question, it is your too, isn't it? Will my friend get pregnant? When will she find her match? Will my brother be cured of cancer? Would he be a better person? Will good things come to me? Maybe, only maybe, you will find your answer, somehow. Maybe, It is just a question of time. No, i mean, I know, it is just a question of time. He made things in HIS time and it couldn't be better.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 says "He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."God please help me remember this when things are so very hard and when all hope seems faint,. Help me remember. Help me remind my friends & the people I love, so that they too, will remember.

P/S: To my friend, who got pregnant: You deserve all things wonderful simply because you are. He has made THIS time & it is going to be beautiful :)